Some days are definitely better than others.Some you wake up so full of life you can almost revive a dead one and times you just wish the sun would not rise.That the darkness would linger on longer for you are not really excited about facing the world.You are a bit dull.That's me today,the latter I mean.My moods are just up side down.I am not smiling.Got tears threatening to fall.It happens,at times,this feeling I mean.I will get over it.That much I know but the journey between where I am to where I am supposed to be isn't very interesting.Today I am glad I have God on my side because He is able to make sense out of what i cannot make sense out of.I'm not even sure I am writing correct English.Excuse me for that.Well,this is the time I should shift the focus from myself to something else.
I'm trying to think,what role can I,as an individual play,in helping the IDP's of my country and in ensuring the youth do not allow themselves to be used to fuel hatred and chaos come the next general election.See,the seed was planted and now a lot of us thin along tribal lines.Healing has not yet taken place.People have turned a blind eye but there are still so many hurting because of the violence that erupted
during the last general elections.Some were directly affected,all of us indirectly and I find myself wondering how best we can start nursing the wound until it heals.
You only need to start a political debate for you to know just how deep the injury is.It always starts on a light note and ends with tribal debate.Growing up,all I knew was that yes,there were all these different tribes but that's just about it.I knew my tribe and my friend's tribe but it had no implications.Now we have so many tags that we use jokingly but I think they increase the rate at which we notice our differences.Luos are the proud ones and those who love the finest things.Kikuyus,the business-minded community...etc Some of the labels are not things to be proud of and they may end up making someone feel bad about speaking a certain language.In this generation,even children as young as 7 years shun each other because of where they come from.Not even the children were shielded from this monster.Their childhood some what destroyed because their best friend was from a different tribe and Mum and Dad poisoned them by making comments that made them know it is not okay to have a friend from that tribe.I think of the children who saw their parents being butchered.The one I will never forget is of one woman who's family was tied up and made to watch as she was raped then killed.Her husband and children.By the time of the interview,the man was half way losing his mind.The scene kept coming to his mind.The picture of his wife,the mother of his children,his soul mate,the love of his life,his queen,being degraded so badly and him being powerless to do anything but watch in a lot of pain.I think of his children and I wonder what they think.I try to imagine the number of sleepless nights as they call out for mama but disturbing mental pictures coming to mind...
We moved on,or so we think.The IDP'S,four years down the line still live in pathetic conditions.The other day their chairman says they were praying to God asking Him not to allow the rains to pour because their tents are torn and the rain will just nit be a blessing to them.Yes,we are praying for rain but to them right now,it wold be a curse.The irony is sickening!And we have the suspects being portrayed as heroes.Money being spent by the government to fight for their own.A slap on the IDP's faces.Those whose only crime was to belong to a different tribe.The thought of it brings tears to my eyes.I want to help so badly but I'm sort of confused with where to start.Times I look at myself and wonder what I have that makes me think I can even do anything about the IDP's plight.
I am human.I am a Kenyan.I am an affected person.I have an aunt who was shot by police officers on the leg during that time.She still has a roof over her head but her limp is a constant reminder.I have a heart.I have love for my neighbor.My neighbor being anyone in need.These are more than enough reasons for me to champion this cause.What about the fake ones?Those posing to be IDP'S but are not?I don't know.God knows and He will deal with them.I cannot use that as an excuse not to do good.I tried asking a journalist who had covered a story on some of the IDP'S but I have never received a response.Well,maybe they are just too busy.So,I guess I will have to do this on my own and anyone who will be touched enough to want to make a difference.A journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.Once I take that first step,I can find my way.
So,what if I start and fail?Well,we will never know until we get there right?If you read this and you get moved to do anything and you get any ideas of how we can help make a difference please feel free to share.
Operation Bring Back A Smile...That's what I will call it.
Thank you.
Moulding Beauty.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
a madd crazzy world
Criticism most say is not nice.I say it depends with your intentions because hey,i could be doing that because I know you can do better and I don't want you to settle for any less.So let me do a bit of that starting with one Honorable Minister from my beloved country,Kenya.I don't know much about her other than she has lost my respect.Of course that doesn't matter to her,I mean she doesn't know me but I tell you,one dissatisfied voter can cost you a lot....Any who,in my last post,I talked about her not being very serious with life.Now I thought her saying what she said about H.I.V. positive people was crazy but well,she was only starting!Now,she is approaching her climax when she says that should the Ocampo six be convicted,the women of Kenya should strip.I read that and I was like,seriously?And she actually says that in public?There are things you just don't think aloud.Like they are illegal and this is one of such.Now,you can imagine what the IDP'S,the group she is supposedly in charge of,feel about that?She has been on their case for four years now,and I'm still wondering what good again has she done?Imagine leaving the government after five years,and all people remember of you are your half thought remarks.Pre-mature sentences.That is it.Well,we all are different and we all value different things....
Ok,so citizen's latest arrival has a commercial for her arrival.I didn't get a chance to watch it but one of the comments i heard about it is that she looks like she is advertising an escort company.Hearsay...Someone from the same company believes the desired effect has been attained.You know,get people talking and I wonder,do we have to do things poorly for us to get noticed.Ok,so you have us talking then the D-Day comes and we are not impressed....then what?Well,people have different marketing strategies,right?
This was just a break.I am a perfectionism survivor so if you are to rate anything by my standards,it would almost be suicidal but i believe we can do better.Yeah,I was trying my creativity on a play of sorts and maybe im just not there yet.I love writitng though and when I do it for fun it's even more fun...
Ok,so citizen's latest arrival has a commercial for her arrival.I didn't get a chance to watch it but one of the comments i heard about it is that she looks like she is advertising an escort company.Hearsay...Someone from the same company believes the desired effect has been attained.You know,get people talking and I wonder,do we have to do things poorly for us to get noticed.Ok,so you have us talking then the D-Day comes and we are not impressed....then what?Well,people have different marketing strategies,right?
This was just a break.I am a perfectionism survivor so if you are to rate anything by my standards,it would almost be suicidal but i believe we can do better.Yeah,I was trying my creativity on a play of sorts and maybe im just not there yet.I love writitng though and when I do it for fun it's even more fun...
Monday, April 4, 2011
MR & MRS/MS.POLITICIAN
Dear politicians,specifically,Kenyan Politicians,
Let me not waste much time on salutations because I am not sure i really im interested how you are doing.Why?Let me see,why be concerned with people who only think of themselves?You already have so much attention from yourself so you don't need any more.Oh yeah,the media also gives it to you though times i wish you would just be given a black out!For you to bicker around amongst yourselves and only to yourselves.Now that would be something.Any ways,Hague is here.The suspects have left,i think(i make it a point not to follow your every move too much,just know enough to go by.I'm sorry but you are not that interesting.ok,thinking about you just makes me get migranes and those are not healthy.im sorry)
Let me ask a question,if I called you for a fund raising to help the IDP's,today,would you be moved?Like would you even care to send a representative or just write a cheque and have it delivered?The other day,I saw a number of you donating towards the expenses of one of the Hague suspects.Now,I'm not by any means suggesting that you shouldn't have.I mean then where would your sense of spirit be?I'm just asking if you would extend the same kind of brotherly love to brothers and sisters living in miserable conditions because they "loved" you enough to turn their backs on the one who had always given them a pinch of salt when they were in the middle of preparing dinner then they realized their supply was out.Yeah,I don't really care who was and not involved.At the end of the day,many lost their lives and others their livelihoods because of you.So I ask again,would you be moved to be part of such a fund raising?I mean,Sang is no politician.He is just a radio presenter.I can assure you,I also have fans.So on that,he and I can be said to be at par.So would you?
Shuttle Diplomacy?Kenya is actually richer than what you make us believe.Only that the riches change hands up there and it never gets to trickle down.Why can't we have one of you just be human enough to not allow parliament rest until something is done about the IDP'S?Why can't they have a political spokes person to fight for them?I know,I am dreaming right?but if I lose hope,then I lose it all.So against all odds,I still hold on to hope.
The Minister for special programs and etc,don't you guys actually consider once personality while giving these posts?She has lost all my respect and I am pretty sure that of other Kenyans as well.Now,someone who can come up with such an idea of isolating H.I.V. positive people as a means of...I don't even know as a means of what,cannot have my respect.Yeah,human beings have weaknesses right?Well they also have God given abilities to think and weigh their actions and words.How far again has she gone with the issue of IDP's or what does her job description entail?Yes,I was affected because I may not be infected by H.I.V. but i definitely am affected.So yes,it did hurt to think a leader would come up with such an idea.It is disturbing on so many levels.
Politician,as much as we tell each other as the mwananchi that we need to take matters in our own hands,you also need to take up your responsibility.You need to being in leadership automatically grants you the power of influence.So,what are you doing with that influence?We line up to put you in a position of influence so that you can help make choices that would make our lives better but what do you do once you are there?You get sucked in into the drama called....by the way,who is the director of the drama you politicians act in?Like who writes up the script for you and all?You should one day do a show at Kenya National Theater or something.I promise you,we will come to watch and yes don't worry,we will pay for the entrance.
Can you do a collaboration to end the hatred amongst the tribes in Kenya?Like can you put your differences aside and your ambitions and actually do something for this country that will have you remembered longer?Can you promote that brotherliness amongst us by you demonstrating it?Can you tell us that yeah,politics is your job and like in marketing you need to sell your brand but that you actually love each other,ok like each other as persons?Do you think you can unite for the sake of Kenyans?I can promise you,it will make a whole lot of difference.But this is just wishful thinking right?If you do that you risk losing to your opponent,right?And that's all that matters to you.You have a following,whether we like it or not.There are Kenyans who would give their lives for you guys.Heck,they already did.But that means nothing to you,right?You see,we as Kenyans are warm and loving people.We love honestly.You think tourists love Kenya just because of the nature and all.It's also because they know we accept them without qualms.We give them a nice time because we see fellow human beings.And you have taken that to your advantage to fuel you own selfish desires.
If I had one wish,it would be that you as our leaders would actually be just that,keeping in mind that a leader is truly a servant.If I had two wishes,the second would be that you would love us as much as we love you.But if wishes were horses,then Kenyans would ride...
Let me not waste much time on salutations because I am not sure i really im interested how you are doing.Why?Let me see,why be concerned with people who only think of themselves?You already have so much attention from yourself so you don't need any more.Oh yeah,the media also gives it to you though times i wish you would just be given a black out!For you to bicker around amongst yourselves and only to yourselves.Now that would be something.Any ways,Hague is here.The suspects have left,i think(i make it a point not to follow your every move too much,just know enough to go by.I'm sorry but you are not that interesting.ok,thinking about you just makes me get migranes and those are not healthy.im sorry)
Let me ask a question,if I called you for a fund raising to help the IDP's,today,would you be moved?Like would you even care to send a representative or just write a cheque and have it delivered?The other day,I saw a number of you donating towards the expenses of one of the Hague suspects.Now,I'm not by any means suggesting that you shouldn't have.I mean then where would your sense of spirit be?I'm just asking if you would extend the same kind of brotherly love to brothers and sisters living in miserable conditions because they "loved" you enough to turn their backs on the one who had always given them a pinch of salt when they were in the middle of preparing dinner then they realized their supply was out.Yeah,I don't really care who was and not involved.At the end of the day,many lost their lives and others their livelihoods because of you.So I ask again,would you be moved to be part of such a fund raising?I mean,Sang is no politician.He is just a radio presenter.I can assure you,I also have fans.So on that,he and I can be said to be at par.So would you?
Shuttle Diplomacy?Kenya is actually richer than what you make us believe.Only that the riches change hands up there and it never gets to trickle down.Why can't we have one of you just be human enough to not allow parliament rest until something is done about the IDP'S?Why can't they have a political spokes person to fight for them?I know,I am dreaming right?but if I lose hope,then I lose it all.So against all odds,I still hold on to hope.
The Minister for special programs and etc,don't you guys actually consider once personality while giving these posts?She has lost all my respect and I am pretty sure that of other Kenyans as well.Now,someone who can come up with such an idea of isolating H.I.V. positive people as a means of...I don't even know as a means of what,cannot have my respect.Yeah,human beings have weaknesses right?Well they also have God given abilities to think and weigh their actions and words.How far again has she gone with the issue of IDP's or what does her job description entail?Yes,I was affected because I may not be infected by H.I.V. but i definitely am affected.So yes,it did hurt to think a leader would come up with such an idea.It is disturbing on so many levels.
Politician,as much as we tell each other as the mwananchi that we need to take matters in our own hands,you also need to take up your responsibility.You need to being in leadership automatically grants you the power of influence.So,what are you doing with that influence?We line up to put you in a position of influence so that you can help make choices that would make our lives better but what do you do once you are there?You get sucked in into the drama called....by the way,who is the director of the drama you politicians act in?Like who writes up the script for you and all?You should one day do a show at Kenya National Theater or something.I promise you,we will come to watch and yes don't worry,we will pay for the entrance.
Can you do a collaboration to end the hatred amongst the tribes in Kenya?Like can you put your differences aside and your ambitions and actually do something for this country that will have you remembered longer?Can you promote that brotherliness amongst us by you demonstrating it?Can you tell us that yeah,politics is your job and like in marketing you need to sell your brand but that you actually love each other,ok like each other as persons?Do you think you can unite for the sake of Kenyans?I can promise you,it will make a whole lot of difference.But this is just wishful thinking right?If you do that you risk losing to your opponent,right?And that's all that matters to you.You have a following,whether we like it or not.There are Kenyans who would give their lives for you guys.Heck,they already did.But that means nothing to you,right?You see,we as Kenyans are warm and loving people.We love honestly.You think tourists love Kenya just because of the nature and all.It's also because they know we accept them without qualms.We give them a nice time because we see fellow human beings.And you have taken that to your advantage to fuel you own selfish desires.
If I had one wish,it would be that you as our leaders would actually be just that,keeping in mind that a leader is truly a servant.If I had two wishes,the second would be that you would love us as much as we love you.But if wishes were horses,then Kenyans would ride...
title will come soon enough
Bob :I don't know any easy way to say this so I'm just going to go with it and say it.
Gina:(with tears in her eyes)Please don't.I'm sorry.I don't know what I was thinking.Now I realize that I was wrong.Please don't say it.
Bob :G,it hurts me to have to do this because I love you and I am not sure if that will ever stop but for now,I cannot be with you.You are too toxic for me.Every time I look into your eyes...(he turns away from her and looks at the then setting sun)
Gina:(too ashamed has her face buried in her hands)Bob,I'm sorry.I truly am.Now I realize that it is you that I love.With or without money.I don't care if we are living in a makeshift or a mansion.As long as we are together,I know we will be ok.I will be ok.
Bob:I'm sorry Gina.I wish you found that out sooner rather than later.It's ok though.I played the fool and I got tired.Now,for both our sanity,i have to...go
(he walks towards the door without giving her another look.it always did break him to see her tears.)
Gina:Bob!Bob!please don't go.Please don't leave me alone.Bob,i will simply die without you.This thing will now kill me faster.I have no more reason to fight.Bob...
(her cries were only heard by the walls of her house that now felt freezing cold.)
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Gina:(with tears in her eyes)Please don't.I'm sorry.I don't know what I was thinking.Now I realize that I was wrong.Please don't say it.
Bob :G,it hurts me to have to do this because I love you and I am not sure if that will ever stop but for now,I cannot be with you.You are too toxic for me.Every time I look into your eyes...(he turns away from her and looks at the then setting sun)
Gina:(too ashamed has her face buried in her hands)Bob,I'm sorry.I truly am.Now I realize that it is you that I love.With or without money.I don't care if we are living in a makeshift or a mansion.As long as we are together,I know we will be ok.I will be ok.
Bob:I'm sorry Gina.I wish you found that out sooner rather than later.It's ok though.I played the fool and I got tired.Now,for both our sanity,i have to...go
(he walks towards the door without giving her another look.it always did break him to see her tears.)
Gina:Bob!Bob!please don't go.Please don't leave me alone.Bob,i will simply die without you.This thing will now kill me faster.I have no more reason to fight.Bob...
(her cries were only heard by the walls of her house that now felt freezing cold.)
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