THE LONG WAIT

I take a look at my wrist watch.So much time has passed I am even shocked I'm still awake,yet,no sign of him?Where is he?Did he not get my many texts and calls that went un answered?Is he ok?I am over myself with worry.I know not what to think.This wait has been so long I feel a bit lost.Many have come and gone,with me at the same place,holding on to hope.Every time I want to leave,I think,'what if he comes and finds me gone?'I wait.It is almost twenty four hours gone,yet no sign of him,not even a message to know if he is on his way.It's cold and im freezing.No,I did not think of carrying a sweater.How was I to know he would stand me up?He seemed enthusiastic when we last talked so I figured he was equally excited but I think I have been sailing in this boat alone.Maybe just with a mirage.Now I'm wet.The rain showered me and I am dripping wet.I get it now.I think.The rain does drown my tears.24hours of waiting,you can't say I did not try.You can't say I did not wait.It breaks me as I walk alone in the dark streets...Castles in the air is what I'd build and now I see them crumble down...It hurts.It pains.The truth always hurts...A car pulls over.I care not to stop or turn for I knew it couldn't possibly be him.Footsteps behind,catching up.Should I be afraid?A thief maybe?My heart is already cold.They can do whatever.I care not.He stands in front of me.Forces me to stop.I look at him blankly.He puts his court around my shoulders.He leads me to his car.I resist not.I am a wounded soul.The warmth feels nice.I smile.For the first time in24 hours.Someone noticed me.It felt good.My lost thought.Eyes close....