Moulding Beauty is my baby.Moulding beauty is my platform to use the gifts so freely given by God to touch someone's life,maybe inspire them.Moulding Beauty is my channel of sharing my thoughts with the rest of the world.Miss Emily Wasonga,God bless your soul for lighting my path for me.For allowing God to use you to be my guide.Thanks a lot.
Life is truly beautiful.Even when we going through some trying moments it never loses its beauty.Today i choose to celebrate my life.It has been full of ups and downs,it still is but i love it all the same.Times I just wanna scream my head off,times I go like being dead right now would be better than living but I take back those words very fast because I know it's not what I really want.At least not now.I still have work to do.A lot of work.So I celebrate all my failures,my losses and triumphs.I celebrate my joys,tears,laughter and pain.I celebrate it all and thank God for the path He chose for me.True it is different form everyone else and I love that it is unique just to me.Like Abraham being asked to sacrifice his only son,that was his path and God knew he had it in him to obey that is why no one else in the Bible was asked to do the same thing.So my life is unique.The things I have been through,I doubt any one else could have survived.Some have said I am strong,especially in high school but I knew it was He who lives in me that gave me the strength to got through...
I have had moments I wished to die.I have at some in my life contemplated suicide because I thought life was too cruel for me to bear another blow but God never let go of me and I am here to share my story with another and let them know if He did it for me,He most certainly can do it for them.I realize that death will eventually catch up with me,there's no need of helping it out because as sure as death itself,when the time comes,it will not delay,so let me not do other people's work while no one is doing mine!
Life trials come to build us up and make us stronger.They come to teach us a lesson that we need at that point in time and at time it is painful,very but if we do not concentrate too much on the pain and try to analyze the situation,we will find that after the rain and storm,the sun will always shine again.After the tears,you will indeed laugh again and once you get a hold of the lesson that the pain you are facing was meant to teach you,you move on to the next stage of your life and life is a journey that we must travel and every step takes us closer to our destination so do not be afraid of the trials that come your way.Remember,what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger and if you take an honest look at your life,you will realize that during those trying moments,you thought you was finished but hey,you still here so that must count for something.
I have had my battles.I have lost enough but I have also won many.Identity crisis must have been my greatest war but hey,all you need is to hear me speak and you will know that I now know who I am.I have an idea of what my purpose in life is and I am loving who I am just as I am.I know I am beautiful,no,drop dead gorgeous and I do not wait to be told though if you do tell me,I appreciate the fact that your taste is as good as mine!lol.I know I have what it takes to accomplish all my heart's desires(currently im just lazy but I got it in me)one of my favorite songs of all time is Samantha Mumba's don't need you tell me Im pretty to make me feel beautiful...and Zoe Girls' Plain(I'm not sure that's the title),forever 17 and I believe in you...Kirk Franklin's Imagine me and Le Crea's Identity.If you listen to all those songs you will know what they have in common and that is part of what I stand for as a person and what Moulding Beauty is supposed to be all about.
I have grown.Indeed.After living in different houses with different people,family and friends,because I felt misunderstood by some.I believed I wanted my freedom and all these have build me up.At least now I have a pretty good idea of where I would want to bring up my family...Now,I have some sort of stability and it feels so amazing.To be sure that I will be in one place fro at least a year or so...It is awesome.I have discovered a a lot about myself and as they say,there are many ways to kill a cat and so instead of wait for other to understand me,I choose to understand them.It simplifies things and reduces the tensions and fights.
I have had love and lost it and well,it is a painful thing but I also helpful.It somehow opens your eyes.When you love and don't get love in return.When you are loved and you don't love back.It's all so crazy but I purpose to see the glass as half full and not half empty.To smile because it happened and not cry because it ended.So what if where it did not happen?Well if I can't smile it did not happen than I'm sure as heaven not going to cry about it!I have openly expressed my liking to some guys and scared them aware like very fast and I smile about it.My philosophy is,I won't wait for a man who does not seem to notice I exist to come around.Call me desperate or whatever name you want to but what makes me sleep at night,right?I will tell you if I like you,to know if there's room for anything to grow or not.If not,you will be stored in the friends' cabinet and there you will stay for the est of my life unless God intervenes.I don't have my whole life to wait for a man,only for him to send me a wedding invite.Where does that leave me?I know,you have a lot of questions about my philosophy.I shall discuss it in length some other time but for now,be content with it.
My life as a born again someone is my identity.Christ gives me my identity.I know,you are probably thinking,'What?'Yes I am so saved and I love it.I have failed in many ways.I have fallen short of His glory-I still do but it is in my closet,when its just me and Him,that's where I draw my strength;my source of inspiration.That is where I find the meaning of life.If you look closely at me,you will see the sign "WORK IN PROGRESS" and that work will end the day I either get caught up with Him in the air or rise from the dead so don't be in a hurry to see me attain perfectionism.It definitely will not happen in this lifetime.
I love my life and today I celebrate it.Join me in an invincible toast to life if you too are proud of the milestones you have achieved so far.
Have a lovely day.
xoxo
M.B.
It feels good to have people with whom you share personal values. Don't let any one make you stray away from what I have just read. You've proven my fact that there is so much fun and comfort in Christ. Thanx and have a lovely day too xoxo
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