Good morning.Hope you are doing well.I'm far from well,I am fantastic.So,you may read this months or even years from now but isn't it such an awesome thing that words are imperishable?Today I started my day early and it started with a talk with my heavenly Father that has left me feeling so fresh and rejuvinated.I believe I am going to have an awesome day.
Today I choose to talk about a topic that we all love,relationships,but I am going to look at it from a different aspect that I believe we know of but just choose to ignore.Dating,courting,God's way.Yes,God has His way about how we should handle our relationships and specifically here,boy girl relationships.
I had made up my mind as I was joining high school that I was not going to 'date' and I did survive.Not to say I didn't have crushes and all but I just never committed to anyone and looking back now,I wish I had remained as focused after high school but stuff happen.If I knew the real meaning of dating though,I think I would have been ok.Now dating should be all about meeting and getting to know someone with no strings attached.Like you can date five people at the same time with no strings attached.I believe that God has someone for everyone,if it is your desire to get married and I also believe He being so good did not plan for us to get our heart broken fifty times before we finally get the One.I think we are just way too impatient and so we hurry things and hence the proverb,hurry hurry has no blessing.Now,I am not expecting a clap or a standing ovation after this,I am simply stating things the way I see them.You may choose to agree or disagree with me.It's all good.
A brief history of my life with boys.I think for the longest time I used them for my own selfish reasons without really knowing.Now,when I started going out with guys,what we otherwise call dating,I didn't realize it but I did it simply because my self esteem was down and I needed someone to sort of keep me going.That I am beautiful,is a fact and I am not bragging here.So I somehow always had guys interested in me.It was flattering,when beauty is all you have to live by,lets just say it takes all your attention.Now,I don't know if these guys knew my heart and thought it beautiful or it was all physical and frankly,at that time,I cared less.Most of these relationships were physical.You decide you are going out only for your meetings to always be make out sessions.You meet up for lunch,you enjoy the food,watch a movie or two the make out.Making out was the main thing.I think it worked for me because it kept me from talking about my emotions and the real issues of life and at the same time it gave a false idea of closeness that was only physical.
I am a born again someone and even back then I was but does that really hold any water in today's world?Do we really give God a thought when we are there with that someone we like,in a room alone?I doubt it.I would think about it.Think how God did not approve of it but what the heck,He has to understand I am human and I am not perfect and I have feelings and the list goes on forever!Now though,I know that when God requires purity of us,it is not for His sake,but our very own.Yes.See,God is a good God and His plans for us are good and I doubt broken hearts are good so I doubt they come from God.I can promise you,right now,making out is somewhat disgusting.I do not like it.I do not enjoy it.Given,when you make out you are basically fulfilling the desires that you have allowed to be aroused but there is nothing special in it any more.I think over doing something kills the beauty of it.Currently,if I make out with a guy,it kills any sparks there was.That is how bad it is.Given,I am still a virgin and proud of it but I have not kept myself totally pure either.
Writing keeps me sane.I write best when I speak from the heart.This may go a long way to helping just one person and its ok.I stopped writing for multitude or recognition.If you are still as pure as you were born.Don't know what a kiss tastes like or what a touch in some places can do to you,you are so much better off that way.Ask those who have gotten married without a prior knowledge of sex and its children(foreplay etc) how beautiful it is.And ask they who have had multiple sexual relationships how plain it is.
I have work to go to.I shall continue this later.Have a lovely day.
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