decisions

Le Crae sang it.that our identity comes from God.that is our true identity.that any other would only self destruct.i have searched comfort and sanity and purpose and identity and love and acceptance and so much more all in the wrong places.i mean i know God holds holds the answers but somehow i keep running away from Him you'd think He is toxic,well he is but in a good way.i know he has the others but i don't seek him.i am busy running around in circles and unfullfilment is where i always end up.a lot of dissatisfaction and the interesting thing is that i know what i need to do and God does too and is waiting for me to decide but i am still dilly dallying.holding in to stuff that don't really work yet still holding on.i need to make a choice and soon and of course the right thing is always difficult to choose but i gotta make a choice...