So,I have a lot of thinking to do like within a three month period and I'm not sure where to start but I will figure it out.So,i have a lot of growing up to do.I have had major drama in my life,given and I have figured,drama is like the spice of life and it will always be around so my best move would be to just let go and move on.I have been playing the victim card for way too long and I'm allowing the past to mess with my present and almost blur my future and so I need to get a grip of things,deal with them,clear up my closet and start a fresh.
I have a man who loves me so much.How do I know?well,he is completely honest with me.He tells me the truth about stuff,even those that are scary.Even the truths that threaten to break and mess things up,he says them and I love him so much for that and I can assure you,tough love makes you grow.It makes you wanna get better.It makes you do things you didn't think you could do.Tough love is good.It does not feel like it when its being said but hey,it always does work.I have a girl friend from hell,i think,for the past 6months and I need to clean myself up,not just for him but more importantly for myself.I have decisions to make;a lot.About where I want this life of mine to head and it's a little scary.Walking towards unfamiliar grounds but hey,no one has ever died from it.At least I do not know anyone who has died from them.So I will be fine.
I love my best friend.She opened this blog page for me.She is the other human being who gives me tough love at times I feel she knows me better than I know myself.And it is good.It is healthy.To have such people in your life.Because when you feel you cannot move another inch,they will be there to tell you you can because they know you so well that they know what you can and cannot do.I am glad I have this blog.For the next three months it will be my best friend.I am glad that not many people read it because some things are best done under cover.While I know there are people who check it out.And if you read this forgive me for calling you random.I do not know you though and that makes it easier for me to just write without the worry of who's reading and what they are thinking.This is a journey that is long over due but hey,better late than never and so I'm packing up and gearing up for it and this time round,no matter how hard it gets,I shall not stop or turn back.This is it.This is the fight for my life;for my future.If it's got to be,it's up to me(sky dancers say that whenever they are going to fight skylux.or some other danger)So I am excited.I know I have the backing of the most important people to me so I am great.
Let me go back to my current obsession,Private Practice.Catch up with you later and maybe,just maybe,I shall name my blog page so I can refer to it(haven't decided if its male or female) whenever I come to write.
Toodles.
P/s:no numbering the days.No keeping a record,just writing.
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